Canyonland sunset, UT

My precious, 9 month old niece

City Council bldg, in Salt Lake City, UT

Greetings from TN!

I had an absolutely AWESOME trip across the country from OR to TN. Once again, I drove by myself. I took I-70 this time (When I went from TN to OR I took I-80). I think that everyone should drive this route! I went to the Natural Arches in the Highland Canyons in Utah and spend about 5 hours driving around the National Park. While I was there, a thunder and lightening storm settled on the east side of the canyon while the sun went down on the west side. (I think I have that right.. sun sets in the west, right?! lol) The setting sun turned the huge rain cloud into a huge wall of pink with lightening flashing out of the pink cloud. And the sun set with dazzling colors behind the towering pillers in the canyon. I have NEVER seen anything so gorgeous. I just sat on the grass barely daring to blink because I didnt want to miss a second of it. It as absolutely amazing.

I also enjoyed the Rockies. I know exactly where I want to go snowboarding! It is off of Exit 195, on Cooper Mt! lol AWESOME mountain with incredible runs...lol I had a great time driving thru the Rockies, and again, I just couldnt drive slow enough to take it all in. lol

After 7 days of driving and sight-seeing, (yup, took me 7 whole days....lol) I drove into Collegedale about 11pm on the 18th of August. I spent Sunday buying furniture (got a really nice couch, a queen sized bed, a beautiful dresser, etc) and then I spent the rest of the week sleeping (LOTS!) and unpacking.

Now school is in full force. I had the unfortunate experience of getting terribly sick this last week (102 degrees fever... it was awful cuz I had papers to write and stuff to read, and I wouldnt go to bed until it was all done!) but now I am feeling better, fortunately. My hardest class is spanish, and totally lost is a good way to describe how I am feeling in that class right now! lol

I have been reading my Bible through lately and the Lord has been showing me all the verses that talk about how a Christian should act, talk, what their attitude should be, how they should relate to others, etc. It has been a great experience.

Will post some pics here if my computer will let me (hard drive is going bad).

My summer update

WOW! How on earth do I describe my summer?!?!?!? Let me try...

Three days after getting back home from TN I called my old work at Creswell Care Center and asked if they had any charge nurse jobs open for just the summer. The reply was, "Boy do we ever!!!!" I started just a few days later and they gave me 2 days orientation and then I was on my own!! It was an absolutely amazing experience to manage the care for 50+ patients ( CCC is becoming a more skilled care unit then a long term care unit, btw... just to give you an understanding of the level of care) and supervise 30 staff, most of them 20 years older than me. I told my boss that I would work 5 days a week and 40 hrs/wk. Hahahah! So much for that. I ended up working 7 days a week and about an average of 60-70 hours a week. Sometimes I would work 20hr shift, go home for 4 hours and then come back for another 20 hour shift. But I learned so much and I absolutely fell in love with the people there as well as many of the staff. My director was LDS and my DNS was FourSquare, so it made for some interesting discussions as well. I worked for a total of about 9 weeks, and my average salary was $33-$45/hr, so I made some much much needed money.

After I put in my leave of absence Mom, Dad, and I went on a vacation to the coast for 3 days. We had such an AWESOME time!!!!! The entire time we were there it was about 65-70 degrees and sunny. Mom and I waded in the water for hours every day. We also went to the aquarium of the days were there too. We had such a nice time. And true Carol fashion: I came back with a fiery red sunburn from my swimsuit that is a nice second degree burn over 20% of my body. Talk about owie, and nerve damage. lol

We would have stayed longer but I got word that one of my best friends was seriously injured in a ATV accident in Reedsport. On Tuesday he was sent to Sacred Heart Medical Center. I got to SHMC about 4 hours after he got there. I stayed until 4am the first night. He was terribly injured: broken pelvis in 6 places and a major stab wound in his side that punctured his small intestines as well as causing other major damage. He had surgery this last Wednesday and then ended up in the ICU for 2 days . I managed to get into the ICU with him that night and stayed until 3am. I have managed to spend most of the nights with him at the hospital since then. I was planning on leaving for TN this last week, but postponed it until the 12th so I could stay longer with him. He wont be out of the hospital for at least another 4 days, but he is out of the woods for now so to speak.

As most of you who have kept in touch with me already know, I have changed a lot this summer. I was trying to describe this change to someone this week, and I just couldn't describe it quite right. I have grown a lot more serious, and just matured a lot more I think. I take life a lot more seriously. I am well on my way to a very successful career that will provide me with a very good salary. I am also learning how to be comfortable with the fact that I am single, and be content in whatever state I am in. Of course, I wouldn't mind at all if mr right suddenly fell outa of the sky and landed in front of me with dazzling good looks and said: "I have a message from God! I am to marry you!" lol But I am an extremely busy girl, with many goals and am extremely devoted to my job and my career and my school life (especially now with my realizing how many years I still have ahead of me). Most guys wouldn't want a girl who is so driven and so busy. Anyway, I am just blabbing to myself here...lol

The last 3 days have been a blur for me as I have spent most of my time getting ready to move back to TN. I bought an entire new set of tires for my car (had to work an extra day to buy them...lol My job is so cool: I was like "I want to buy a set of really nice new tires. I think I will work an extra day and get the money" haha). I also washed and waxed the outside of my car and cleaned the inside and vacuumed it all out nice inside too. It looks so nice. :P After that began the HUGE chore of packing, and do i EVER hate packing !!!! Right now it is 1am on Sunday and I have about 400 pounds of luggage lined up at the front door ready to be loaded in my already too full car. Hmmm.. wonder how that will work!

I was so thrilled to have Saralyn and her sister spend the night at my house this summer. She is such a cool girl. We had a lot of fun.

Of course I spend tons and tons of time with my sister and her precious, adorable, beautiful, sweet, smart, and cute little girlie! I love that kid so much as if she as my own. She has figured out and mastered crawling and now is busy trying to figure out that walking business. lol She has grown so much.

As most of you know, I am absolutely dreading going back to SAU this year, but I am sure that somehow I will survive and will live to tell the story! lol I am pretty excited about my little house though. I was talking to a friend who is trying to desperately find a house near SAU right now and has found nothing for months and I just feel so blessed to have such a beautiful place so near the school that is reasonably priced. And I have the entire thing to my own self yay! No roommates!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Well, it is 1:15am now, and I suppose I should hit the hay for a few hours. I have my days and nights turned around from my work and somehow I just don't ever turn them back around. lol

Overall, this had to be one of the best summers I have ever had. The Lord is good to me.

My last AZ update

My next Arizona update:

May 27, 2007

WOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOWOW!!!!!!! WHAT A TRIP!!!!!!! I am on the airplane headed back to TN right now. Just left Phoenix. I was actually sad to leave! I have made so many friends there, and I enjoyed my time there so much. What a lot of memories I made at that place! I cant believe it!

So my last week was a lot easier than the first! For one thing, moral improved greatly. As each of us got more comfortable with preaching, and the routines got more easy, people were happier. I had an interesting second week!

I made friends with Ben, in our group. We ended up spending a lot of evening time walking and talking and praying together. It is a sweet memory for me. It is so nice when two people can talk together about what God has done for them, study the Bible together and pray together. It really builds up the faith. Scott and I had some really nice times together too as we ate food together each night at his church and drove together each night. We would often have prayer groups at his church before we parted ways. He is a good guy—he will make a great pastor. His church sure loved him!!

Kasey continued to be an “interesting” person in our group. I figured him out, and had some pretty nice time’s together going and eating out, and laughing and joshing each other around. We also did some pretty wacky things like drive in the lawn at Thunderbird Academy, make an airbag alarm go off in the rental at a drive-thru window at Taco Bell (Hahahaha! That was SOO fun! You should have seen the lady’s face!) God really worked in his life in an AMAZING way on our trip. You should have seen the change in that guy! It was pretty phenomenal. He and I have become cool friends.

Our team leader was the sweetest lady! I am going to miss her this summer. She did a great job with our oft times challenging group of people. I think she was definitely the person for our team—God is good, and He knows what He is doing. I hope that somehow she is richly rewarded for her efforts. She was such an encouragement to me.

We took a day off to go and visit the Natural Bridges---the worlds largest natural bridge. Ben, Josie and I went…. It was SO cool! The rock formations in that cave were incredible! Ben and I spent almost 2 hours rock climbing. It definitely was some of the most extreme rock climbing I have ever done! Lol At one point I had to jump about 20 feet down and have him catch me—I was pretty scared! But it was so cool! We explored a cave with bats in it, and I walked under the waterfall (and got REALLY yelled at by the rangers, but oh well!) It was pretty cool place. Kasey and Scott went to Mexico that day—guess they had a pretty interesting time. Kasey got a HUGE sombrero—it is about 3 feet across! Haha You should have seen him wearing it onto the plane today (he couldn’t pack it).

This last sabbath was just amazing. First of all, Ben had one person baptized, and Kasey had 5 people baptized and I had 1 person baptized!!!!! And Kasey’s church hosted a huge feast in his honor, and gave him quite a few nice gifts including an Aztec blanket and a Spanish/English Bible. My church gave me a beautiful alarm clock that is engraved with my name on it (It is GORGEOUS!) and they had me come up and thanked me for all that I had done there. Then the really strange part was: Scott’s church gave him $150, Kasey’s church gave him lots of $$$, Josh’s church gave him money and my church gave me $300! I nearly fell over. These people are so generous! I feel like they gave us more than we gave them. My translators wanted my email, my hotmail and yahoo messenger ID, etc. I think the kids were more sad to see me go than anything. They are all so sweet. I do think that Kasey’s church was the best church—he has been asked to host a series of mtgs for all the phoenix spanish churches! Plus they want him to come back this fall and do a youth series of meetings! WOW! He is pretty amazed by it.

God really blessed me with my sermons. Each night I got better and better, and was able to speak to the different people in my audience. The last 2 nights God really spoke through me in a way I never realized. I had a call for people to come forward the last two nights, and I had 3 more decisions for baptism. (I think I had around 12 people ask for baptism!) I cant describe what it was like to preach on the Holy Spirit, the Remnant church, and heaven the last 3 nights. I was not one bit nervous (even though on sabbath I had over 100 people there) and I was able to walk around the platform, and really get into it, and not even look at my notes for the entire hour. I am still walking around in a daze that it has all really happened. I thought I wouldn’t be able to do this—I know that God really worked overtime and worked in spite of me.

I had several interesting happenings the last week including one night I ended up with no translator, and so a guy said he could read English and translate to spanish… HA! Well, my notes only make sense to me, and he read my notes exactly as I had written them (instead of translating what I was saying) and not only that, he didn’t know half of the English/spanish conversion words and people said it was AWFUL! They hardly even knew what the topic was that night… haha It was pretty bad! Lol (The topic was the 4 horses in Revelation 12) Another night I had a guy walk in and half way through my sermon I saw him reach down and pick up (what looked like) a rifle. Now this guy came every night pretty stone drunk, looked like he never showered or combed his hair in a year type of guy. He began playing with this thing, and running his hands over it. The lights in the auditorium were dimmed so I couldn’t see for sure what he was doing with it. But at one point he picked it up and kinda pointed it at me. My first reaction was: Run Carol for dear life!!! But then I thought, I would rather die preaching than running scared, so I just stayed. At the end of the sermon this guy walked out and only then did I realize that it was his cane that was carved EXACTLY like a rifle—even the tiny details were engraved on the cane. Haha Talk about an adrenaline rush! Lol Another night the senior pastor walked in (he pastors 7 churches and only makes it to the church I was at about 2 times a year.) This guy is the best evangelist in the state and the whole area. I got pretty nervous, but when I finished this sweet pastor just showered me with compliments, saying I was the best student preacher he had ever heard, and blah blah. I am sure he was just trying to make me feel good and all, but wow! What a nice guy!

So now I am heading back…. Boo hoo! We left Ben behind, he is staying and working at summer camp there in AZ. I was kinda sad to say good bye to him—we had a lot of fun together. I bought his return ticket with my credit card before I left, so he has a way back, which is good. Once I get back it is going to a flurry of running around to get ready to leave for Oregon. I am super excited about that.

Wow! What an exciting summer, and what an incredible experience I have already had! God is SOOOO good! I cant wait to preach again! I hope I don’t have to wait all the way until next summer! Lol This has been the best thing I have ever done!

Update: I got back to TN, and my car wouldnt start cuz I guess I left an interior light on. It took campus safety 20 minutes of jump starting the car to get it going again. Talk about stressful! lol Then I stayed at Mayri's for the night. Thank you Mayri!!! You are a so sweet! Then I went over to my new apartment and paid the downpayment and first months rent ($810!!). It is such a gorgeous apartment in a GORGEOUS location so close to campus. I am really happy. But it is kinda expensive. lol

Then about 3pm I headed out of TN! I am now at Days Inn in Kentucky. I am about to hit the road again. I am having a lot of fun! lol

AZ Update

WOW! What a few days! So on Sunday it was my first time to preach. I had about 30 people there. I was really nervous but they told me that I had a good translator. But she only lasted about 5 min--she didnt know enough English to translate. So between about 4 people translating and helping each other out, I kept going. Then about 15 minutes into the sermon this dead drunk dude runs up and starts yelling: "Lady! Why dont you speak in Spanish!!" He also was running around the church yelling horrid things in spanish (or so I was told) to all the church members. I just raised my voice and kept preaching while the pastor wrestled him outside. But he didnt stay outside! He came back in and began running around again yelling and causing a huge disruption. Some of the visitors began to walk out and I began to worry. I guess the pastor was worried cuz he thought the guy had a knife. So about four church members carried him outside. But he came in again! It wasnt until the pastors daughter (who was doing the majority of the translating) yelled "Shut up!" to him that he sat down and was quiet! So that was my first night... whew!

So the next night we almost got hit by a REALLY drunk driver who was driving backwards all over the 7 lane freeway and almost hit us. But we got there safe, and I had an EXCELLENT translator. She was SO good! The meeting went great!

So yesterday I woke up with the worse sore throat I have ever had-- I mean it was horrid!!! I couldnt talk or anything. Nothing I used managed to make it go away! So everyone was praying like crazy. About 20 minutes before I was to get up and preach my sore throat went away! I was so happy--but I was still running 102 degrees fever too. But I had 4 people decide to be baptized! I was so happy!!!

Today the moral in the group is down-- four of our team members almost ran off with the rented cars and wanted to go to CA and leave the whole preaching thing--people are upset with each other, and stuff. People are mad at the conference, mad at each other, mad at the program, etc. But I am reminded of the disciples, how they argued about who was the greatest, and who would sit on the right side of Jesus in heaven, etc. Jesus knew that Judas was going to betray Him, and He knew that Peter would deny Him. But Jesus never gave up! And God used these normal, every day fisher men to win souls. If God can use Peter, He can surely use me too!

Gods workings in Arizona

Well, the saga continues! I am not starting preaching until Sunday night cuz my pastor is just finishing a series of meetings today--and he had 21 baptisms today! But he said (through his daughter who is my translator) that he has over 40 people who are interested in baptism! I am really nervous about my series--I feel that there is a lot at stake at this church. The Lord needs to speak there, not me. I just need to be His messenger.

The devil continues to be very furious. He knows how to work too! He has caused so much conflict among our group, and last night I guess there was a big fight among some of the guys of our group late last night in the mens dorm. This caused everyone to be discouraged and down. Man, the devil is clever! If he cant stop us from getting here, he is going to try to keep us from wanting to preach! But, wow, God is incredible! I have seen Him working behind the scenes to encourage, bring people to the meetings, and work to reach people.

Scott Cronin had around 19 people come to his meeting last night, but for sabbath sermon he had around 30-40! An answer to prayer! We have seen the devil attack one of the girls computer and make it not work, but when she prayed over it, ta da! It worked! Pretty amazing!
This is being quite unlike any trip I have ever taken! I wonder what will happen tomorrow at my church when I get there to preach?! Pray for me everyone! It is so hard not knowing a word those spanish people are speaking. It would be really cool if I knew just 5 words of spanish! lol But I know that God is in control, and He is going to do some amazing things!

Arizona blog

Wow! What a crazy day to get here to AZ!

To start off with, I had to move out of my apartment by 5am on Tuesday morning to be ready to get on the shuttle going to Atlanta (which left at 5:30am from Hackman parking lot.) By mid afternoon Monday I had NO idea how I was going to get done. All of my friends I tried to call were either busy or didn’t answer their phone. My main problem was a 100 pound box I had to carry up that steep flight of stairs outside my apartment. After trying to call about 15 different people, I had to (inch by inch!) carry it up the stairs myself. And that was not the only heavy box I had to carry up those stairs! I had a total over 10 boxes (all of them over 30 pounds) to carry up those stairs. In the evening, Mayri came over to my apartment (THANK YOU Mayri! You are an angel!) I would have never lived if she hadn’t come and helped me! I got the last box out of the house and the last suitcase up the stairs at 4:55am on Tuesday—five minutes before I was to leave for Hackman parking lot!!!! I did a lot of praying that night—around 3 am I really didn’t think I was going to get moved out on time!

But that wasn’t even the beginning of my interesting trip! We got to Atlanta to find out that our flight was cancelled. So the 6 of us had to wait almost 12 hours in the Atlanta airport before we finally left at 7:30pm!! An airplane NEVER looked SO good! We got here to Phoenix only to find out that we needed to rent rental cars (we were told we would have church members transporting us to where we needed to go) and not only that, but that we weren’t going to the Mariott Hotel, but Thunderbird Academy! Well, driving in Phoenix when I hadn’t had any sleep for almost 3 days was quite the adventure, and it was quite the adventure when we got here to the Academy only to find out that they didn’t know that all 8 of us were coming (we joined the other 2 team members here in phoenix) when we arrived at the Academy at 11pm! (Or 2am EST… which is what our bodies that the time was!) Hmmm, more adjusting! I wonder what will happen next!

Arizona Day 3

So I have been here a total of 2 days now. WOWO!!! What a 2 days! SOOO many unexpected things going on! I think the devil is so mad that he would do anything to shut us up or harm us—anything to keep us from preaching. I found out that half of the churches didn’t even know we were coming. My pastor only speaks Spanish, so I couldn’t understand him, (but I finally met my translator, a cute 17 yr old girl, and that made my life a lot easier!), and my church is almost 75 min drive away from here!

Not only that, we are having a lot of moral problems here in the team. We had one team member run off with one of the rented cars and threaten to leave, and another team member refuse to talk for a morning (cuz he was made at another team member) and all sorts of craziness. Our team leader has never lead a team before and got super stressed out and yelled at another team member today, and last I saw, 2 team members were headed into downtown Phoenix tonight because they wanted to get away from here and all the conflict that is going on.

I have been learning how important adaptability is, and calmness. When everything is falling apart around me, and everyone is so stressed out and running around blaming everyone else for stuff, I have found that it is SO important for me to double my time with the Word and my prayer time. My one desire is that others (including my fellow team members) not see me, but Jesus in me. I am nothing, but Jesus is EVERYTHING. How I pray that I may be one with Him, and that I abide continually in Him—and never separate myself from the True Source of love, and peace and joy. I pray that I may be filled with His holiness that I have something to give to others. I need to be continually filled with His love, so that I can share it with others.

Ok it is 3am, gotta hit the bed! Had to stay up late to try to combine two hour long sermons into one 35 minute sermon!

YAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Everyone, I am here to announce that I am done with finals and I am still alive!!!!!! Whew! What a relief to have all those tests over with! And to think, no tests, or quizzes, or hundreds of pages of reading until end of August! Yipppeee!!! Of course I am sure I will be super busy this summer, but it is sure nice to be done with school for a bit.

My chemistry final was the hardest test I have ever had in my life! I dont know when I have been so nervous about a test! I will know how I did later on this afternoon. I know that I didnt know all the answers to all the questions, so that kinda worries me.

I will write more laterz after my nap. ;)

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Oh so very tired! That is all I have to say! Even with over 25 hours of sleep in the last 48 hours, I am still ultra tired!
Good thing we have sabbath!

So I feel like writing instead of studying tonight.....

Lately God has allowed me to get a glimpse of the sinfullness of my own life. I have seen myself in a totally new light. I have so often thought of myself as basically a pretty good little christian girl. I think the Lord has been really shaking me up lately as I have realized how far I have to go and I have gained a glimpse of the plans He has for me.
I have realized my lack of total abandonment for God. Am I will to serve God regardless of the cost? Am I will to give everything, even if it costs me my grades, career, my dreams and hopes to God and be willing to be totally used for Him? What if it means going to a little village way out in the jungles, away from my friends and family? What if it means never getting married and having kids? What if it means going to dangerous places? Am I still willing to commit 100% to God?
I have seen a glimpse of how selfish I am--only thinking of what will make me happy and how I want my plans to work out. I have limited God to my silly man made box. Do I trust God enough to allow Him to do whatever He needs to in my life?

Am I willing to give up everything to be used by God? Am I willing to sacrifice everything so that others may know God? Am I willing to undergo harrassment, teasing, loss of friends just for the cause of God? Am I willing to be considered radical for Him?

Thoughts from the kids mtgs at North River

I was reading the last 5 chapters of John this morning. I was again just amazed and humbled at how much God loves us. God loves us as much as He loves His Son. Not only this, but He bids us to love each other like He has loved us. I wondered, is it even possible to love others as much as Christ loves us?

I have been helping out with the children's meetings at North River this weekend, and I have been pretty much grief stricken with how little these kids know about love. I have grown up in a home where my parents would die for me if need be. They have given their entire lives to raising Sharon and me and giving us everything we possibly would ever need (and more!). But here are children who have to fight to survive, who cant read or write, who have no hope for a college education and a prosperous future. How sad!! I have been trying to figure out what I could do for these kids. I am only one person. Like Brian Glass was saying last night, as we drove back to the church from dropping the kids off, we couldnt do children meetings like this with just 5 people. It takes a whole army of college students to manage these kids. Think what would happen if the entire college became involved in reaching out to kids like this!

Anyway, just some food for thought for me. I feel like I am doing so little to reach out to others--the field is ripe for harvest, but there are oh so few laborers who have a single minded mission to reach the unreached. Yah yah, I put in around 4 -5 hrs a night into these evangelistic mtgs, and I put in over 40 hrs (at least) into the Health Expo, and blah blah and people say to me "how do you do everything and keep up your 4.0 GPA?" My only response is, I do so little! There is so much more to be done! I bet Jesus is just amazed at our laodiceanness.

Gods Love

I was reading I John through this evening, and I gained a totally new glimpse of God's incredible, awesome love for us.
I was just sitting there in a little room in the North River church thinking to myself, "wow!" God could use beautiful, perfect, shining angels to reach the lost of this earth (which would be SO more effective). But, wait! He doesnt! He uses us...silly, stupid, obnoxious, sinners. We under-estimate God, we grumble and complain when God has PROMISED to give us everything we need, we dont obey His amazing commission to tell the world about Him... we cheat, we lie, we hurt God day in and day out with our silly sinfulness and selfishness. But God uses us! He has chosen us to be the messengers of His amazing love and forgiveness. He looks past our short comings, and sinfulness and all our mistakes and hang ups. He loves us so much He says "You, Carol, are the person I have chosen! You are to bring MY people to me. I dont want an angel to do this job. The reason is this job is the most important job in the world to me. I love you so much that I am honored and privileged to give this job to you. Accept my love, and go share it." Wow.... really amazing. Really, really amazing.

During the sermon this last sabbath Malcom shared Acts 6:15. He also shared the story of this non-english speaking family that came to SEYC two weeks ago. Someone asked them afterwards if they understood any of the words being spoken. The man said, "Oh no... we couldnt understand the words. But we came because the faces of those involved in the program shone like angels faces." Wow, my face shone like an angel?! This is what God does to us! He makes us shine like angels.

It is so exciting to be involved in reaching out to people! This series of meetings at Chattanooga, and also the series I will be holding in Arizona is going to be simply amazing because God is using us and shining through our faces so that when others see us, they see the faces of angels.

Done with midterms! YES!

I am all done with midterms--what a relief! This was one of the most intense weeks I have ever had. I wasnt sure I would survive last night. I think I was close to the most panicked I have ever been preparing for tests before. But God is so good to me. I had been studying alone all day but a friend came walking by in the library around 10:30pm and I was talking with the person and they were expressing similar feelings. We just knelt down on the floor in the library, and gave all the stress and worry to God and just left everything in His hands. God is so faithful to His word, for He gave us both the peace that passes all understanding and He also gave me a clear mind to keep studying most of the night. It was an awesome experience.

I am so glad that God is faithful to His promises and is always with us. That thought has been such an encouragment to me this week. One of the reasons this week has been exceptionally hard is that a number of major negative factors/circumstances/happenings have occurred, and the devil has really jumped on the chance to get me discouraged. A few nights ago, I went walking down by the duck pond and just sat down there for the longest time thinking about everything that has been going on. Since it was late at night, I could just sit down there and talk to God out loud (a rare occurance these days!) and I was much encouraged that God is still with me and in control of my life.

I feel so unprepared to preach my own evangelistic series this summer. A lot of people I know are going have their whole church praying for them and family's and their friends supporting them. I have yet to have one person say they will pray for me, or give me words of encouragment. But I feel that this is where God has called me, and I am going to answer God's call. God promised Jeremiah to put His words in [Jeremiah's] mouth, and I have asked God to do the same for me. I trust God to keep His promises.

I am going home for Spring break. I am hoping to go snowboarding. Mt. Ashland has 10 1/2 feet of snow at the top of the mountain right now. They got 68 inches of snow last week! I am hoping it will stop snowing long enough for I-5 to get cleared off so I can drive down there.
One of the main reasons I am going home is to see baby Shalyn. Sharon told me she is planning on going to Mt. Hood area for both weekends I am home and so I am not sure if i will get to see baby that much after all. It will be good to be home though, and eat good food, and SLEEP! hehe
I am going to bed.

OCI Retreat

I went to the OCI Reliance Retreat Center again this last weekend. What an awesome place that is! Once you get away from all the distractions of society, and out in the quiet of nature, you can hear God so much better!

I decided to get up early each morning, before any of the 45 people were awake and spend some time with God. I had such an awesome time walking by the frozen pond, seeing the birds wake up and seeing the sun come up over the cabin early in the morning. There were so many awesome things that I saw. I saw frost on the grass that was frozen in place around the edges of the pond that was so intricate that it was absolutely a total work of art. I saw patterns in the ice on the pond that was amazing. I saw the moon over the cabin that was so clear that it looked like I could just hop in a little plane and go fly and land on it! I believe that God put those things there for me to enjoy, knowing that I needed the extra lift, and the extra assurance that He was with me.

In the business of the weekend, I dont know of anyone else who took that special time to get up early and enjoy these small, but amazing things. I wished that there was someone there who i could have enjoyed it with, but maybe God put those things there just for me to enjoy. (Well, I know He did, since no one else saw them.)

It was a great weekend.

Yay!

I FINALLY figured out what the matter with my computer is, so I can finally log in here again and post stuff on my laptop. Guess I had blocked cookies with McAfee and so I had to go in and review literally thousands of blocked cookies on my computer to find this website and allow cookies again.

School is keeping me super busy. But I think the extra stuff I am doing is keeping me more busy. I have a major problem with saying "yes" to things and not being able to say no! lol There is so much stuff I like to do, and there are so many opportunities here that I just jump at any chance to be involved.

I got a job teaching a fitness class at FocusHealth, which is a live-in drug and alcohol rehab facility. I am really enjoying it, though it is still stressful! I am sure I will get used to it very fast once I develop a routine.

I am off to write 3 papers now and finish reading for a class before I spend most of the afternoon on the phone calling newspapers to advertise a health expo in Chattanooga.